True Friendship

I couldn't stop myself from anguish. Wanting to cry out loud to ease the agony inside. Letting go is the best answer. Forsake and move on from the negativity. I even said anyway I am just a poor girl where no one can lend on.

What a world. Where everybody used to praise the outward looks. Where they just used you when needed, It means to say many are called users. It is wrong to feel this way. It's of Satan's tactic of defiling once confidence.

I am a coward person and it's true. Whenever seems a mess tears will pour down. Can I ask anyone? What can they say about me? Longing of having a true friend was/is my quest. Yes, I have my family and my creator. I knew they're always with me. But, it's a different story. I guess better to stay alone.

I thought I found him but I am wrong. I failed and broken. Maybe I am just a poor girl that cannot be proud of. I can't lie and yes born poor in terms of worldly treasure. Even poor in mentality and immature. But, it doesn't mean I am nothing.

I am not pretty for I was stout where mostly mocked. Somewhat nerd for I don't know how to associates. Being despised for I am somewhat an old-fashioned. I am a late bloomer where fashions couldn't take it in;

So long so long and accept the fact. life must be a challenge to combat.

























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I Can Count On Them

I used to hate having a pet because it's a hassle. Fear of being harm especially they're animals. We can't understand them right away. They have their own speech, moods or lifestyle. One cause of death every year due to rabies.

My brother is the one who loves to have pets. Eager to take care of until one time his pet cat been crashed to death by a tract. He sob deeply wanting to have revenge. Gladly, our mother did calm his wounded heart. I admit despite of I felt sad about it. A feeling of longing arouse and I guess it's normal.

Heavenly Father chose Jesus Christ to create worlds, universe, plants, animals and humans. We owe a lot from them. They give us everything we need. And as for me animals are part of my life. Sad to know many disobeyed the laws of God. They destroyed every living creatures just for gain and pleasure. Some would say anyway we humans are superior than them. They are created for consumption. Yes, but not all are destined to be that way. Some animals are created to be our partner.

We must not be wrought to them. Just remember they are creations of God like humans. I can attest that if we treat them nicely they can be our best friend. They have feelings to feel, a sight to see, an ear to listen and a courage to depend us and so themselves. Whenever into trouble or sad moments they're there to uplift us in their own ways. They are willing to mourn just for you.

Since we have pet dogs and cats I love being with them. I have a fear of losing them in fact every time watching movies or news about couldn't control to grieve. Even I spent hours in providing their daily needs. I set a time for them. I knew it's some kind a hassle for it mimic other activities to handle.

Life here on earth is temporary. There is an end on everything, I experienced lost due to illness. Even mourned deeply. Gladly, I knew there is a hope for there is resurrection, Nothing is impossible with God if we do our part.

True Friends Still Exist?

I used to believe." Make New Friends But Keep The Old, One Is Silver But the
Other is Gold."

We need a friend because we're humans. Someone can lend on in times of needs. Trusting is an important factor in friendship once ruin everything will be useless. No man can live alone.

I have been through many challenges in searching a true friend. Yes, I have my mom who always there to support and lift me. But, as what said we're living in a world and of course can meet new people around. We need them to learn new things. Beside, God created people to associate with.

I admit have some lapses as used to say. I can commit mistakes but trying to cope just because of friendship. Despite of my weaknesses I tried to reach out in order a friend be lifted up. I even extend hours, minutes or seconds just to listen their cries. I am not rich pertaining to material wealth and even dependent on my mom's support but at least I am willing to be with.

I was born somewhat a loner and loves to be alone. The feeling of shyness abound my real status. Even don't know how to approach anybody. Loves to keep secrets especially to my family.

I always asked myself what's wrong with me why there are perpetrators. Hiding behind my back supposing they're true friend. What have I done? This is a mortal world and everything is temporary. Yeah, for many are hypocrites or users. Many are Just after of physical aspects. Once you possess beauty many would praise not thinking the inner aspect of a person.

It is a challenge. A challenge of life to conquer. A part that needs to conquer.



















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The Lone Survivor

April 20, 2014, can be considered as one of the tragic incident happened to our life. Even up to now could still imagine. Sometimes tears will dropped upon my eyes and reminiscing the lost of the two innocent kittens. Before I hate them but recently I learned to love. Seeing them playing and mingling one another can touch our hearts. Imagining even they're animals they are also like us.

We just came home from attending church services. I knew the Holy Spirit kept on whispering me that something gonna happened. A warning to hearken and do to stop negative outcome. But I just ignored and if only maybe up to now they're still here on earth playing. But I guess it's their time to leave or maybe Heavenly Father won't allow them to suffer much afflictions in this wicked world. Unluckily their ending was so painful.

We're hungry and must eat dinner when suddenly my mom heard the sound of our big dog. She listened where it was. It was too late he was able to free himself. A sound of mourned abound us. My mom went out to save the kittens. I cuddled our small dog for safety and hid myself in the bedroom but hoping it would be fine. I knew I am wrong if only I did my best to help my mom I guess it wouldn't happened. I have faith my mom can handle but I never take a move. They strive to survive but since they're still so young. Just started to learned to move and walk or even eating solid foods.

It is a premonition? During their breakfast time my mom decided to give them milk. We wanted to learn them more about the world. Notwithstanding, it's their last time too. Maybe during the attacked they both were eating. I asked myself "where is the mom?" "Where are the uncles?" Why they didn't help them? If only they can still survived. There's always maybe..... Maybe they both strived to escape or what ever. Poor little ones succumbed to death. My mom described everything but I dared not to listen more. I just mourned their lost.

I knew the plan of our Heavenly Father. It's a mortal world. Everything on here is temporary. All has an end. I am glad I have the knowledge that help strengthen me. There is a purpose and season under heaven. There is a chance we could see our love ones one again if we do our part in obeying God's commandments. Every time I could imagine maybe they're happy and playing now together with their love ones too in the spirit world. Maybe they're seeing their lone brethren playing alone.Or they're there to protect them from danger.

My mom then decided to name the lone survivor kitten "Survivor." Due to what happened he is

somewhat loner. There's agony behind her innocent look. Could also imagined how a mom mourned during the lost. The mother cat eager to gain revenge but we stopped. We need to protect her. Someone needs her care and love. 

We are all creation of God. We have feelings just like an animals. Live moves on and anyway there is chances.

Looking Where I Belong

"Kung sino man ang hindi marunong lumingon sa pinanggalingan ay di makararating sa patutunguhan by Jose P. Rizal." In the scriptures stated without our ancestors or our forefathers we're nothing.

All I thought since child my parents are full blooded Filipinos. Yes, since there's mixed marriages that's why looks varied. But I never thought it would happened. Didn't know too why I hate them? Opps, sorry but that was before. I knew we are all children of our Heavenly Father created by His own image and likeness. No racism but I guess due to human instinct we somewhat evade others.

My mama used to ask my papa when he's still alive. "Where your forebear originated? He just said Luzon area. Didn't have knowledge for he never seen his grandfather. Already dead. 

In our religion we're encourage to know, learn and dig up our ancestors for without them we're nothing. In my mama's side at least we collected some information. But to my papa so rare. Don't have enough idea where to search. Family is such an essential to us humans. It is where we are mold.

As what I used to say I am not fun of chatting or communicating others just through net or even through texting using mobile. Just a homebody and a simple living.

Do I look like an Indian girl? Someone used to say that I am not a Filipino. At first confusing. Maybe my brother and rest of my relatives.

Not knowingly my mom did wonder and she itself searching to discover the origin. I could say grateful that given the opportunity to knew computer. I knew it's a hard tasks but it's a commandment to follow. It's an obligation to fulfill.

As we keep on searching in net I was so amazed to see the result. One in common. Mostly belong to the south part of Asia. The people whom I ignored. Someone had said you'll feel sorry for it.

Recently, i felt glad someone reached out for me even

I stopped from sending them friend request because the feeling of insecurity bestowed upon me. They're rich and we're not.

I knew families is the most important unit of our society. Even difficult to connect and explore but must do. Nothing is impossible with God. 

The Time Is Nigh At Hand

For thus saith the Lord—I, the Lord, am ^amerciful and gracious unto those who ^bfear me, and delight to honor those who ^cserve me in righteousness and in truth unto the end. (Doctrine and Covenants 76:5)

It's been awful to know how tempest destroyed the place I live. Many sufferings arise due to lost of love ones, belongings and up to now there still missing. Two consecutive disasters came particularly in the Visayan Region.

Magnitude 7.2 Earthquake strike in Bohol where most of their historical structures collapsed. Tourism were affected. Almost thousands aftershocks were recorded. Many would say it's a punishment. Come to think it's a warning for all of us. As quoted in the scriptures pestilences, turmoils and tragedies will come.

Leader always remind us to be prepared at all times. Be vigilant enough against temptations. 

It's not yet over when Haiyan or Yolanda came that almost swept the whole area in Tacloban, Leyte. Innocents cried for help and didn't know what to do. Countries around the globe do support in many ways. Just to support victims. Despite of many murmured. Unequally serve of needs. 

As a concern citizen been hurt. But I knew it's part of our life to ;earn to remember that He is existing. "For the time is nigh at hand." 

Mom’s Undying Love

We should know that all things are created equal in the sight of God. Have given responsibilities to take care of. Before I hate animals especially when their fur touched my skin. Giggling and trembling feelings. Until one time all things changed.

It was one of my greatest fear before to see cats. Every time I chased them out. For me, they are dirty. Just last year a mother cat came in. Rugged looked and have a tingling eyes. She’s pregnant  asking food for nourishment. We’re not supposed but our heart was touched upon knowing the condition. She’s a tame one.

As to humans it takes nine months but to animals just months prior to delivery of their siblings.  A cry disturbed our attention. We searched it until we saw she gave birth to three cute kittens. It was the genes counts which we can inherit our physical aura. She’s not beautiful but the siblings turned out creatively made. With different colors of furs they owned. Amazingly to see how wondrous our creator did for us.

She did her best to hunt foods so she could gave proper nutrition through breastfeeding. Kept them safe from any perpetrators. Just one time when our elder dog accidentally released. We all scared thinking of the little ones. She’s great even an animal have the knowledge how to save her young. The kittens just learning to walked managed themselves for protection. During rainy night striving to find a shelter. One time she’s not around.  Of course a young ones once in trouble will tremble and cry. They’re almost wet. My mom find a used cartoons to make them as temporary shelter. Giggly to carry but she did to protect the kittens. Beside knowing an animals felt jealous ones you see or even touch their young.

Until another episode came got pregnant again. Notwithstanding, even at her condition still she never failed to do her tasks as a mother. Undying love she shared to them. But I noticed animals too have mode swing when in this condition. Despite of at least she is always there for them.

If only have sufficient budget it’s nice to see them all big. Unfortunately not, so my mom told her if possible she must transfer  to another place that is safe. Hoping she find another one who have humble heart. Before the departure she see to it the total safety. Even advice them to be together as one.

Now, every time we see them playing we can imagine how great our creator is. They’re comparable to humans. But as for me indeed they are far better than humans. Extraordinary one, knows how to calm in times of trouble. They have a humble existence.