Diverted Coincidence

"In every way be cautious to stay away from harm."

I don't know what happened to me that day. Why everything seems wrong? A warning to focus.

Last November 30, 2011 when we planned to go out. I was in a hurry without seeing my shirt was inverted. It was my mother noticed upon riding a jeepney. I felt embarrassed she just said it's okay anyway a style. Gosh, another when we took our snack my straw was also the same thing.

After awhile unexpected experienced. We never think about it for many years of living in the house of my aunt. Before we live peacefully and safely. No troublesome, no disturbance until one Sunday afternoon after attending church services and choir practiced. We never felt nervous. Upon closing the gate we saw two young lad stepped out bringing a sack. That time our mood changed. I was shocked and felt useless. Luckily my mother bravely looked around if there's someone left behind.

Due to poverty many young lad engaged in criminal acts to earn money for their living. There's a law imposed by a senator any minors were exempted to jail. They will be under the care of social welfare. As to such many adults used them for illegal agenda. Especially when December is coming rampant of notorious criminals are spread.

It seems it is a warning in our part not to trust anyone. A sign to be observant in our surroundings. But a sign also that a terrible misfortune will happened. Because it was happened before a terrible storm hit our homeland.

From then on we felt uneasy. We didn't want to go out. Afraid it will happened again. All in my mind was to trust God because for me He will protect us.

As what stated in one of my favorite passages:

1 The Lord is my ^ashepherd; I shall not ^bwant.

2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he ^aleadeth me beside the still waters.

3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of^arighteousness for his ^bname’s sake.

4 Yea, though I ^awalk through the ^bvalley of the ^cshadow of^ddeath, I will fear no ^eevil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they ^fcomfort me.

5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou ^aanointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.

6 Surely ^agoodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.

Psalm 23:1-6

Hometown Tragedy

Accident or coincidence? Morning time when my aunt took a bath she accidentally hit the closet. It collapsed and broke into pieces. My friend immediately rescued her. Water flowed all over the bathroom. It seems like a flood. I guess it is a sign of warning. To my mom's experienced once a thing is broken it takes out the bad luck. That day we already heard a news a certain typhoon is coming. We kept on updating to see to it all were safe.

At nigh we enjoyed watching television shows when strong winds and big dropped of rain came. We never expect a tragedy. We never expect our hometown will be affected. To recall, I was born and grew up in a city where strong winds will passed by only. Many will say it is a strong city even it is small. Nobody could destroy it. Guarded by patron saints Micheal the Archangel, who's earth name was Adam.

A warning to all of us. A time to change, to repent and be ready to meet God.

To remember what I've learned in the scriptures, God sent a rainbow and promised Noah there will no floods to come. God gave us trees for our benefit. Roots can hold on water, leaves can serve us our shield and helped us to build houses and furniture. People now are greedy to the extend they abused. Yes, we are now industrialized, have big buildings to stay in. Forgot our promises that we must take care all what is given.

Tremendous and shocking to know what happened. Saturday afternoon my brother called me informing to tell my aunt not to pursue in going home. It's dangerous a strong typhoon hit our city. Many lives and properties lost. Upon hearing I felt down and forgot the limitation. I was warned not to spread the news to my aunt. She hysterically cried and confused on what to do.

We also being told to open the television to see more.

What a disaster before my hometown was safe to live in now no more. It was known as " City of Waterfalls" Iligan City. Many trees grown and lots of fruits to take in. The beauty is no longer within. To some reports it takes years to recover. Many people succumbed to death. Suffered illnesses due to dirty environments, lacked of foods, shelters and proper medications. They need help. The time is nigh...It is a warning The Son of God is coming. We must be prepare all the time. Repent for all our mistakes before it's too late. It's sad we saw innocent one died but I know they will serve as witnesses to the wicked during The Big Day...

Blessing From On High

My father was a policeman. During my childhood days he's been assigned in mountainous area. We're both belong to The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-days Saints. Every worthy man have given the privilege to obtain Priesthood Power. A free gift to be value once spoiled it will be taken.

In the scriptures stated, "The priesthood is the eternal power and authority of God. Through the priesthood God created and governs the heavens and the earth. Through this power He redeems and exalts His children, bringing to pass “the immortality and eternal life of man” (Moses 1:39). God gives priesthood authority to worthy male members of the Church so they can act in His name for the salvation of His children. Priesthood holders can be authorized to preach the gospel, administer the ordinances of salvation, and govern the kingdom of God on the earth."

It was a rainy night when I and my younger brother had fever. My mama kept on waiting for his arrival. She felt worried about our condition. I know she have great faith and testimony of God. Decided to go out to seek for helped. Luckily she met Elder Missionaries from spreading the gospel. Invited to come and to give us a Priesthood Blessing.

While we're left I felt worried of what will happened. To calm down I prayed for comfort especially my brother felt the same too. I have to be strong I am the elder. It's my duty to to protect and guide him. Just then they came in.

Faith precedes miracle. They pour our frontal part with olive oil and gave a special blessing. I know God loves us so much. He provided anything to us. Only it's our obligation to do our part. I know such blessing can save lives. Not only that situation but during my general surgery process. All the Priesthood in our area before fasted and pray for my recovery.

Fate or Faith

Faith, courage and endurance are essential to gain success. These were lacking in my life. I guess the reason why I am still unemployed. If only I have the guts to achieve and forget the past. In fact I kept on asking maybe I was born unlucky.

Reminiscing my childhood days again I've been an honor student when I was in kindergarten. Blessed with talents and active in both secular and spiritual aspects. Even received awards and praises. Now change..... It came to a point I told myself this is my fate.

Yeah I know in everything there is purpose. Only God's know what will be. I knew I am wrong. I tend to neglect my responsible and became stubborn. Even a self-centered being. Always comparing others capability. My utmost dream is to have a stable job, support my mother's needs and the promises I made. If these will happen my life is already complete.

Insecurity and immaturity adds on. Every time I have plans these will come. Lessons to learn that I must move on.

I want to be independent and be a career woman. To have a permanent job to be proud off. To break the prediction of my aunt. Those words can still be remember, "I can't find a job because I am weak." I want to break the record.

Yesterday I tried once more but still failed. I told myself it's not for me again.......Well maybe if I had that job there's a possibility no longer magnify my responsibilities in the church. It's a risk in my health... Left my mother behind...Life goes on I know there's still chances as long I am alive. There are things intended for me all must do is wait and have faith not fate in God.

Reminiscing My Days

Things would really changed. As what my mother said many would attract my beauty. I was cute and cuddly. I have fair complexion with pinkish face. I was blessed with good voice. In fact I've been a member of the choir during my childhood days. Even I am stout I am tall. Friendly and attentive willing to join and participate any activities both in church and school.

After awhile my life became lousy. That time I couldn't accept changes. I used to cry alone. I felt depress when I saw someone happy and successful. Even envied my own brother. My self-esteemed became low. Became a loner and I don't want to be with somebody else.

The only thing that challenge me to move on was my ultimate goal. To reach out and share. It was my greatest dream to fulfill it. But I guess it was not meant for me.

"Our life is like a thief. We can't expect what will be. A temporary state we have. So live it right."

A Light Of Warning!!!!!

For me it was not a dreamed a warning for me.

I can compared this in the scripture in Lehi's dream and it is found in 1 Nephi 8:13.

"And as I cast my eyes round about, that perhaps I might discover my family also, I behold a river of water; and it ran along, and it was near the tree of which I was partaking the fruit."

Last Thursday morning I felt want to wake up because it's almost 7 o'clock in the morning. Feeling tired so instead of having my morning prayer I lied down and closed my eyes. Just then I saw I was there sitting in a bench tying my shoe lace. All of the sudden when I looked back I saw a creek and it was clean and very deep. Knowing myself I am afraid to saw a creek because I knew it was dirty. Lots of waste materials were there. I move my eyes to different direction to avoid.

It is a test for me how strong I am in facing challenges that comes into my life. A warning to acknowledge. To hold on what is right. Never be discourage and be positive.

As I move forward I noticed I was encircled by a huge creek. To control my fear I lied down and close my eyes. Within my mind no matter what I must resist temptations. I knew God loves me. Since our world now is full of wickedness and I liken it to a creek. I was warned not to fall down to remain steadfast. I must combat every evil forces that will try me.

Like Lehi He choose to follow the Lord. Despite of challenges remain obedient. I knew I am weak but I must do what's best for me to gain true happiness.

Contagious Stamina

Escherichia coli is the most predominant and one of the common bacteria that causes lots of diseases. It lodge in the large intestine that aids in digestion. It is opportunistic that once disturb trigger destruction. In recent studies many serotypes found much dangerous and it attacks to people whose immune system are weak.

Like a baby he is innocent, delicate and meek. Every one loves to cuddle and play. They give comfort during troubles. He don't know anything and needs guidance. Parents must nurture them with gladness. As the years goes on time change. No longer a baby but a grown up one. Surrounded with peers with different attitudes.

In the scripture saith, "Train up a child in the way he should go and when he is old, he will not depart from it."

Attitudes matters most. It is the parents responsible to mold a child. It is true especially the mother. She's the first teacher. Indeed she guides us in every steps but sometimes we can't blame. Each individual have own character no matter how they are discipline. Like the bacteria I mentioned above once manipulated ends destruction.

Environmental status influences one's character. It is rampant in our society. Many were affected and live miserably. High-technology connects our future. It help us improve but too much causes individual fall down. Success is what we want to gain wealth. Everyday we long for it.

Aspects includes physical, spiritual, emotional and financial. For me it's important it helps combat against temptation. It reminds us that we shall lean ourselves on God. In everything we need Him. We are priceless if we stayed weak. Faith and constant prayer is essential.

My Parents' Conversion

Revelation is communication from God to His children. This guidance comes through various channels according to the needs and circumstances of individuals, families, and the Church as a whole. When the Lord reveals His will to the Church, He speaks through His prophet.Prophets are the only people who can receive revelation for the Church, but they are not the only people who can receive revelation. According to our faithfulness, we can receive revelation to help us with our specific personal needs, responsibilities, and questions and to help us strengthen our testimony.

I was five years old when missionaries came to our door. My mother hesitant to accept them because all what in her mind, " the religion she belong when she was born will remain until death." It was my father who was willing to listen. Luckily the missionaries have the faith and perseverance to continue and even said, "there will come a time Sister Sadana will accept the gospel and be baptized to the true church together with her husband.

Every time the missionaries will come my mother have lots of excuses and even escaped by going to the house of my grandmother. She said it's a waste of time to entertain them especially she have things to do. It was the spirit of the Lord who worked because I and my brother whenever we couldn't see the missionaries we felt sad.

In order for us to calm down she brought us to them. Before missionaries were allowed to visit by members in their apartment.

February 12, 1982 she dreamed of Jesus Christ wore white rob with red sash welcoming her to come to His fold. The next month she dreamed again sitting on a clouds dress in maroon rob shedding blood on her fontanel. She felt uneasy and dirty. She never recognized that she was been washed off her sins.

The third time it was in the doorstep towards the sacrament hall Jesus did shake her hands and couldn't explain the whiteness and design of the cloth that wrapped into His body. It was that time Jesus showed clearly His face, nose and chin.

Fourth, she saw the brightness of Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ floating in the sky. They stood in front of her and testified that Jesus Christ is His begotten Son in whom I am well please. He turned around leaving alone Jesus Christ stood in front of her.

The revelations she received guide her to accept the truthfulness of the gospel that no matter what even trials, tribulations, persecutions and challenges she will remain active in the church. My parents was baptized June 19, 1982 and after now we remain active but sad to say when my father died my only brother been inactive he couldn't resist the challenges. I know God is good and loves us. Someday he will realized and go back to where he belong.

Filthiness Never Be Happiness

Mosiah 7:30 " And again, he saith: if my people shall show filthiness they shall reap the chaff therefore in the whirlwind; and the effect is poison."

I could imagine myself walking alone with no direction. Without any guidance. No family.....friends to support. What will it be?

Summarizing the events I could say this is it? All what the prophets of old foretold is true. Many relied on their wisdom. Forsake the truth and worst denied the divinity of God. Fear and anger even develop. Sometimes said giving up and be on my own. Why this happened? He gave us everything but still we're not contented. Recapping almost of the blogs I created full of heartaches and frustrations. It is one way I could express my heartfelt sorrows.

If we live right we can reap happiness but if not we surely gone astray. Full of darkness abound ahead. "Narrow is the road towards perfection but if we have faith and patience long lasting happiness will follow." "Broad and spacious but in the end everlasting torment." Which of this we choose?

I know God is there. He is alive and always hears our cry. No one can ignore Him because without Him we are nothing. He loves us and knew what best for us.

Family Dignity Is A Must:

“What is the root cause of having a broken family? Why do we need to marry when the result is nothing? Why do we need to sacrifice just to fulfill our obligations?”

These were some questions I used to ponder. Yes I knew the reason but due to what I observed since I was a young kid it turned out that I developed a “FEAR”.

Our society now is devastating full of malicious stories. Many having concubines for fun. They are not contented of one but many. Seeking of worldly treasures don’t have time for their family. One thing technology drove us of doing foolishness. Such as online programs like dating sites. Pornography too is included. If only we are God-fearing these couldn’t happen.

I always remember what my Ate Marites told me, “not just a missionary but a true Latter-day Saint guy”. In the church we are always reminded that family is eternal. It is the most important in the plan of God. We must be one to obtain eternal happiness. If only I can escape I will follow my own will.

Yes, as what I am doing now exposed to different kinds of guy. But since I have the doubt and fear so no one wins my heart. Beside it’s difficult to trust especially we only communicate by the use of computers. It needs a thorough observations and most of all guidance from God.

Love, can change everything. If you have it you learned to sacrifice. Whether in bad and good times the bonding will not break. You learned to subdued trials and persecutions. It is not easy but if we center our lives to God everything will be order.

One time I asked one of my cousin, why it is she accepted her husband when later on find another one? Did she love that guy? She replied, at first the guy showed good behavior. As if she’s the queen. Gave her everything until one day she noticed that was only a trick. They were many in the line. Nothing gonna do but to accept.

Of today’s generation many are aggressive. They follow what they felt not finding it’s real or not. They disobeyed the elders to follow their desires. Worst is many got suicide because they can’t handle their situation. Self-control is a must to avoid misfortune. To commit success we need to be obedient. I know marriage is essential but to the right person, to the right time and direction.

Faith Endure

Faith "is the substance (assurance) of things hope for, the evidence of things not seen". It takes courage for you to achieve. Unluckily sometimes felt weak and even lose my faith.

I could still recall when I chose a degree in which for me it's not essential. It's degrading it's not popular compared to other paramedical courses in college. But since I have no other choice so I did. Never think before that it needs patience, effort and of most all faith.

I struggled a lot because at my capacity of having a brain defect. Even thought I couldn't make it. But I said to myself I must do it anyway it's for my own good to serve people. Lack of sleep I need to study my lessons to aim high. Prayer indeed is the best answer despite of getting only a passing grade. At times I need to cope up everything because I feared to fail. I want to finish and serve.

Until the day came when I entered my internship period. In this we need to learn how to handle patients. It is our duty to save lives. First few months I always trembled every time I do venipuncture. Afraid I couldn't successfully hit the veins in order to collect specimens to be examine. Careful movements is essential to obtain precise result. Life is at risks if commit mistakes. Aside we need to tackle every waste material to process and examine of any abnormality. Felt dizzy focusing on a microscope. It's challenging but worth it when you did right.

Even sleepless night just to do responsibilities. Service is fulfilling once you done it with your heart. If we have the endurance we simply say "ALL IS WELL".

Unexpected Memoirs

Living simply was my aim. Yes I have ambitions to achieve because for me it is worth it. Wants to pursue my promises I made after my surgery. Reach out through service was my biggest dream but turned out nothing. I felt disastrous, selfless and useless. I became sensitive that I used to cry alone. Even think of ending my life.

I knew it's wrong....God is the owner of our life and as long we are alive there are chances. Maybe it's not meant for me. There are things intended. I struggled for quiet sometimes questioning our creator. Why this happening to me? Why He gave me another more years when I am nothing. I even said if only I did not manifest my deformities before maybe nothing will change. Grateful to my mother who never give up she's always supporting me.

One of my plan before was to spread the good news or the gospel. To people who need to know about God.

Service is a great worth. It is a fulfilling job. You need patience, talents and most all love. Communication is one thing we can give service to our fellow beings. But sometimes we miss it. One thing I learned is to have a deeper understanding because each of us have different behavior.

Upon helping one of my friend my life changed a lot. Now I guessed it's so complicated. Yes, it's normal there are positive and negative results. I met different kinds of people of different countries. Lately I noticed I did it I already serving a mission. Imparting to them the truth. Well it's true it's difficult. Lots of challenges I faced. I even cried a loud because I don't want them to suffer.

At least out of this I gained extra knowledge and learned extra skills. I gained people who were supportive to us despite of races. But I don't know what's in me. Challenges.....yes I am a type who don't like guys who are aggressive. Since before I always evaded to mingle them. It's wrong in God's law. We are made equal. We have the duty to guide them.

A lad maybe we knew each other before we came here on earth. I kept on thinking what's in me? Despite of troubles and even ignored him in my list still he keeps on going back. I shed many tears. I don't know? Maybe he's one of my mission here to uplift and bring up towards perfection. Before I didn't mind those type but now I learned. Every time I look around the world my heart grieve. I even decided to quit to free from hassle but I was stopped because I knew they need me. I knew God is there. He will help me. Indeed I could conclude life is full of mysteries.

Expounding Truth

Being a daughter of God we have some responsibilities to fulfill. We need to reach out. As a Latter-day Saints we have three fold missions. These are: a. Proclaiming the gospel b. Perfecting the saints and c. Redeeming the dead.

In the scriptures stated, “behold, the world is ripening in iniquity; and it must needs be that the children of men are stirred up unto repentance, both the Gentiles and also the house of Israel.” This is the time for us to prepare to meet God. We need to spread the truth to all men.

I knew it is very hard to do because me too have some weaknesses. When I was a kid I dreamt of serving a mission. I want to go in an area where the gospel is obsolete. Taking risk doesn’t matter as long I can serve the Lord. Sad to say I failed.

Knowing serving Him can be in any ways. Mind changed because I think my health can ridiculed everything. It could be a hassle to anybody if I pursued. Deciding to take another risks but as usual failed. Until such time I decided to quit.

Upon learning another knowledge I did noticed I am in. I am facing different kinds of people whom I don’t know personally. Just by modernization we communicate. It is true it’s so difficult. Preaching the truth takes time, effort, knowledge and above all faith to our Heavenly Father.

I admit I am weak I want to quit. Not only once I decided but several times. I have given my time, effort, strength and knowledge just to feed in what is right. I have been honest unto them but still nothing happened. I almost burst my heart with deep sorrows. Yeah I know maybe not now but someday. Hoping it’s not too late for them to realize because I don’t want them to suffer everlasting torment.

I knew God is great and good. He is a just God. He treated us equally. He wants to be with Him someday. He wanted us to be like Him that’s why we are here on earth. We have given freedom to act on ourselves. But as we go beyond many of us yield into temptation. Forgetting what is right as long they enjoy.

Even they did not noticed why many tremors were happening. In fact we are the root cause of it. Relying on man’s wisdom is somehow happening due to the knowledge we had. So grievous to know the truth. I have to move on and continue what I started because I knew the time is at hand.

Missionary work is essential to us. So we may know what is right. Our mind will be nourished with good hope. Our well-being will be dignified. It is the only way wherein we can bring souls unto righteousness.

Am I Quiting or Not At All?

Sound like I am super sensitive. I have slow temper. I want someone to be in the right tract. I want them to have good life. But I even ruled their life just to see to it.

It was an embarrassing event.....Last 2010 when BER month came. I never thought it would happened. A cried aloud as if I am not an educated one. I don't want to recall but since it's part so never be forgotten. My mama that time kept on reducing my emotions. My friend who was with us also got affected.

When I love someone I want him to be always in good condition. Anyway past is past.....I've learned already but sometimes due to my weakness still felt depressed.

One young lad from estranged land whom before I hate. But since I felt the love of brotherhood was upon me so I accepted him. I even devoted all my time just to guide and taught him the right ways. Gave effort just to support his needs in my own little way. Attending in times of sickness and sadness. Letting him learned extra knowledge that can evolve his life.

It took almost two years and I never expected things would changed. Well young ones now are different as if they are like a bird when out of the cage. Peer pressure is the number one caused. They tend to be wild. Once you warned they ignored. I did not expecting him to be that way. As what I knew he was a sweet and obedient lad. Since then my life changed. Some could attest that most especially my mom.

Everyday and night I cried aloud or secretly. Then on my aura turned into a strict and ugly lady. My charmed eyes no longer sparked. My body became weaker. To the point in time I decided to quit. Even generalizing all people are liars and users. My mama then said, "it's not too late......don't give up......I can still find another one."

Yeah, it's true...and I am thankful to my friend. She made my life bloomed. Once again I met three young lads who accepted me. Not only that but also my mama. I was so impressed whenever I have problems they were there to lift me up. I owed some of knowledge to them. Hoping too they won't change.

Life can't be predict when he came back again and offered forgiveness. Cus when he was lost I thought it's the end. Since we're humans we need to accept and forgive. I don't know maybe the scar is still there feelings changed. He still my youngest one. The trouble happened was a gift to me I have now additional brothers.

Childhood Rhapsody

I may not as other kids grew strong and full of enthusiastic memories. Used to stay at home playing alone. Love to emote as if I am a script writer, director and and actress. If you can't understand what I am doing you could say I'm a freak talking by myself. Whenever school days all my classmates were playing games but me behind watching.

But sometimes neighbors will come in the house for me to join. Or even in school they cheered me up. I don't know but I love to be alone. Anyway it's me all I want is be myself. Well sometimes I joined but for short moment. So that is why I don't have knowledge pertaining to sports.

I love also doing some experiments like cooking and baking. I want to create recipes of my own. Yet cos of curiosity one time I baked a bread without looking proper measurements it turned out like a stone. Hard to break into pieces hahahahahaha. I guess it last for many days but worth it at least of my young age I made a bread.

Fashion was my aimed I wished to be a ramp model. I used to draw different kinds of clothing then imagining how do I look? It was my fondest dream. Walking down the aisles with people around. But since I knew about "Law of Chastity I declined. Knowing some cuts alluring in the eyes. Maybe it was my fondest desire because up to now whenever I passed boutiques my heart glows.

So be it I must accept the reality that never be happened. Now enjoying and observing the heat of the sun what will be. Different beings have different qualities, identities and attributes. Much important we have talents to share.

Forsake and Forgive

2 Corithians 2:4

For out of much affliction and anguish of heart I wrote unto you with many tears; not that ye should be grieved, but that ye might know the love which I have more abundantly unto you.

Forget or forsake or forgive? This is my usual question whenever I am down.

In every instances we face lots of challenges. We succumb every persecutions. But sometimes we felt it's over. Need space to live normally.

I don't know but I kept on telling myself even before to wake up and be alert but still I never learned my passed. I knew I am weak I easily fall down. Mistakes mistakes.......It's time to wake up. I must move on to have a peaceful mind. Leave those worries. Associates every positive aspects. Well, I knew it will end.

Our world now is wicked we seldom view the real intent of a person. We need several times to tango just to see who really is. In fact we cannot praise no one. We give our best because we love them. But unluckily it's not appreciable to them. We even take risks just to save them from bondage.

Yes, agency is there but what is the use if we relied on evil things. Path is wide going to darkness. There are no limitations. Enjoyments anywhere around. Upon seeing those my heart grieved. I can't control my tears. Worried and I wanted to tremble. Yet somehow there is still a chance. Hoping it is not too late.

I knew we need to forgive those who trespassed, persecute and despised us. But we tend to say it's difficult. I felt so depressed and wanted to cry aloud. I wanted to stay away from anyone. Why, what's wrong with me? Did I've done wrong? I did my best I wanted them to be save.

Since we have our own wisdom I could say move on and forget ill feelings. Life is like that. I must be on my own. For if we plant good deeds we can reap good harvest.

Mother's Pride

"Each one of us is peculiar we have different capabilities and style. We were blessed with talents. No one in this world is born barren."

Every time I saw a cute baby I felt excited and can't control my emotions. I wanted to cuddle and prick his sensitive skin. I wanted to listen his murmuring words. For me it can satisfy myself. It can loosen my sadness.

In the eyes of our creator they are pure and innocent. To mothers it is a priceless gift. At their early stage they have talents to show. The so called "Great Imitator." Whatever things you taught they can interact. They can be easily manipulated or trained. As long you give them the right attention you'll reap a blessing.

Even you can't understand their language right away but still we can feel their love towards us. Their words are precious. Like this cute baby I was so amazed seeing him dancing and talking. He's 1 year 4 months and 13 days old.

Confessing My Deepest Agony

Take me anything, everything.

Forsake me if you want.

Treat as if I am nothing,

But I am begging please leave him.

You knew I have no one.

Except the love I have with.

A guy who is dear to me.

To complete my emptiness.

If you insist of owning him.

My heart will swell.

Please let me be with.

For without him I may not leave…….

Pardon my sadness.

Compared I have no one.

Let me annoyed my freedom.

To be love with someone dear.

Stretching Boundaries

Sometimes I felt empty and nothing. Knowing myself I had self-pity I cannot get over the past. Even think I am useless.

To some they think I am strong and brilliant because I have the capacity to convey others to change. I am there to cherish, uphold, uplift and awaken their wounded heart. But the fact I am so weak there is a tendency to feel insecure. I often asked why me? Then my mom would tell, it is one way wherein I can combat my negative vibes. It can help strengthen my soul.

Due to my health deficiency many worries could come into my mind. Afraid of what life can have. I tend to ran away. Hiding from from anybody.

When I was in my teenage years I had a classmate. Like me had self-pity. She would always said she was ugly, short and dim. Some of my classmates would bullied her. Of course I must rescue her. Luckily they would listen to me.

I don't know what is really in me? Why some would say I am blessed? Why those classmates of mine listened? When compared to them I am nothing. They have the brain but why they depend when we have some assignments and projects?

Up to now there is still someone would hearken. One time he said he don't want to lose me because I am the one could strengthen. I even come in conclusion to stop because I am only pretending. I have also many weaknesses. I have slow temper that could yelled and mocked people who disputed me.

It's so challenging seeing yourself weak and there you are doing your tasks. It's difficult the fact now a days many would take for granted of your endeavor. Yea I know I need to be strong to pursue my mission. I need to stretch my patience to reach out.

Friendship Quote

Beyond distance and differences we have;

An unexpected friendship unite.

A year of communication pursue.

Despite of every troubles we shared.

I never expecting a guy like you to be my friend.

Cus knowing myself I am not in tune to.

Due to your persistent endeavor I learned a lot.

To be myself and be ready to face the world.

There were times I felt confused why you accepted me?

I asked you why me when I don’t have nothing.

You just replied I am your best friend.

What a nice feeling for your acceptance.

Yes I knew we’re not perfect we can do wrong.

At times we failed to keep our promised.

Troubles may raged cus of our temper;

but still our path will cross.

Beneath some agony of hardship a soft heart come.

to calm and lift our sorrows.

This is part of life to make us strong.

To uphold our dignity.

Let’s cherish our moments with gladness.

To welcome new steps of challenge.

Remain steadfast in every trial;

and gain triumphant.