I am not a pet lover before and to think of the mind set changed. In fact every time I saw animals be in worse scenarios my heart burst. I could not hold my tears to flow and to sob vigorously.
Last year was one of my saddest moment of life and up to now can't help it but to burst into deep sorrow. As if a knife stabbed beneath despite I knew what will be. As a mortal being be known to subjects to any form of challenges. And should accept everything is temporary. Be it come to pass for this is a state of probation. I am not a pet lover before but as the years went by the feeling of acceptance is included. I mean, the love of accepting to someone who are not used to. In short I learned to love and treasure pets such dogs and cats. Every moment I saw been maltreated inner inadequacy came in. It was not the first but the third been losing a pet dog. The first way back when still a teenager but forgot the exact year for during those time my heart still hanging. I mean, the feeling of total acceptance was not fully attached. Despite of when Sidney died (our first dog) I admit I cried not only for the lost but the guilt. If only I accepted, cared and love maybe he will stay longer. He just stayed few months and died due to intoxication or shall I say unknown cause. Same way to my second Dean, just noticed her body no longer moving. I was about to provide her breakfast meal upon knowing she's in that state.
My second pet dog (Dean), originally from my brother's high school friend given to us. Unlike Sidney I started to accept the sense of responsibility to love and care of an animals but still learning how to cuddle them purely especially with regards to do's and don'ts. I could say even don't given have enough for still remain a sweet and loyal one. And that's one thing I learned and treasured in my mind that animals do have feelings. They are eager to risks their lives for the sake of our safety. Sadly many of us humans still don't accept them. Treated them nothing just like a thrust for them.
As to my knowledge both Sidney and Dean came from local breed but doesn't matter. It was in my thought if only my latter one survived she can be with us here.
It's hard to lost someone you love, the pain can even prick harshly beneath that can even hurdle my everyday living. It was not supposed again to adopt a dog again especially too we don't have enough in terms of monetary. It is just like raising a child, it is not a game for it is not a toy to be take for granted. But when my Papa died my Brother again brought a dog as a replacement for my Papa. A loveone can never be replace.
Coi, was my third dog. This time at least more knowledge prosper but still lacking but at least he survived for 12 years and half and hoping for more.
It was always my pleading to keep them safe for we are not always in their side. Always my wish to have them with me for years until they are old. In life there is always a starting and ending point this is Earthly stage. No one can be here forever. But it was my hope and again it's like that.
For those who believe animals are just animals they are wrong. Like us they are living thing created by Heavenly Father to be with us. They have feelings too. As could recall, the days of distress during our hardships, coping family misunderstanding, in danger and even our leisure days my dogs are there to accompany. As if a human willing to comfort as the way Coi did for us.
I composed this blog as my tribute or a memoir of my beloved dogs especially to Coi because among the three he was the longest. It was tragic for me when he died. I never expected. Again and again, I could torture or blamed myself. I knew we are always guided by Heavenly Father through listening to the promptings of the Holy Ghost if we will listen carefully nothing will go wrong.
My blog will focus on Coi, one way I could express the grief feel inside. Through him I learned to accept animals.
Well, as I go along mean studying more about them learned their qualities and characters too. It seems just like humans. In short God created us equal and oh humans have given greater knowledge for we are given responsibility to care them.
Coi, is somewhat a loner, he never mingle anyone unless he feels safe. Even choosy who to be. When was young as to recall can be with cats but then turned out horrible. He killed not just one but three kittens. And something can trigger but don't know exactly maybe he was being under hypnotised. Anyway what's matter for me he still the loving dog to us. For each of us have own well.
I know there are still a chance someday.... Sidney (could not be recalled when he died), Dean (February 16, 2001) and Coi (July 17, 2019).
Now with Pepay and Wendy plus my Memings (cats) again striving for the loss but have too. Again, hoping God will permit me to have them till they are old. I love them so much.
I have plans for my Coi. It was to bring him to the veternarian for health consultation. It's been years since especially I found out tumors came. I promised that whenever I have money but failed. Setting aside upon observation it was just benign. I don't know exactly the cause of his death.
Life should be treasured everyday with a special purpose. It is to be in accordance to the will of our Heavenly Father we don't know when will be. Each of us have timeline.
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