Wishes......

Each of us have wishes. Every new year we used to write it. Going back in my younger years our teachers used to ask to compose.

Before I was fat and dreaming of getting slimmer but always failed. I kept on planning but craving for foods and it's an effect of medicines. I want to fulfill my ambition to have stable job but failed to have it. Now, jobless and dependent on the support of my family. I want to be independent to show I can do it despite of my passed.

My mother wish us to be a servant of the Lord. Proclaiming the gospel to every nation.She even saved money for our expenses. Unluckily failed. I was diagnosed with a defect and I didn't want to hassle anyone. My brother did pursue in another category.

Dreaming of a house of our own. We want to have privacy. We kept on planning but still failed. We almost bought a land area but declined. I kept asking myself why? What are the plans God has intend for us?

Everything has a purpose. God knows what is good for us. All we need is to trust on Him. Maybe if we bought the land area we're also affected of the latest tragedy happened in Mindanao. Maybe if I had the job there in Cagayan de Oro I am also affected.

Each of us have wishes to come true. We are eager to have it. Sometimes we feel upset why nothing happen. We feel depressed. A challenge to withstand. A trial to our dignity.

One of my mother's word stated, maybe it's not time. Maybe we can have all our wishes in the next life. If we think we are not profitable here maybe in the life to come. I knew it's depressing seeing someone's success. I used to cry but it's part of my trial.

Sometimes enable to succeed we did wrong just to fulfill. But to think of it's useless. It's worthless. We are here to be tested how far we are strong. Challenges will pass by. If we conquer it we can have happiness.