Am I Quiting or Not At All?

Sound like I am super sensitive. I have slow temper. I want someone to be in the right tract. I want them to have good life. But I even ruled their life just to see to it.

It was an embarrassing event.....Last 2010 when BER month came. I never thought it would happened. A cried aloud as if I am not an educated one. I don't want to recall but since it's part so never be forgotten. My mama that time kept on reducing my emotions. My friend who was with us also got affected.

When I love someone I want him to be always in good condition. Anyway past is past.....I've learned already but sometimes due to my weakness still felt depressed.

One young lad from estranged land whom before I hate. But since I felt the love of brotherhood was upon me so I accepted him. I even devoted all my time just to guide and taught him the right ways. Gave effort just to support his needs in my own little way. Attending in times of sickness and sadness. Letting him learned extra knowledge that can evolve his life.

It took almost two years and I never expected things would changed. Well young ones now are different as if they are like a bird when out of the cage. Peer pressure is the number one caused. They tend to be wild. Once you warned they ignored. I did not expecting him to be that way. As what I knew he was a sweet and obedient lad. Since then my life changed. Some could attest that most especially my mom.

Everyday and night I cried aloud or secretly. Then on my aura turned into a strict and ugly lady. My charmed eyes no longer sparked. My body became weaker. To the point in time I decided to quit. Even generalizing all people are liars and users. My mama then said, "it's not too late......don't give up......I can still find another one."

Yeah, it's true...and I am thankful to my friend. She made my life bloomed. Once again I met three young lads who accepted me. Not only that but also my mama. I was so impressed whenever I have problems they were there to lift me up. I owed some of knowledge to them. Hoping too they won't change.

Life can't be predict when he came back again and offered forgiveness. Cus when he was lost I thought it's the end. Since we're humans we need to accept and forgive. I don't know maybe the scar is still there feelings changed. He still my youngest one. The trouble happened was a gift to me I have now additional brothers.