Sometimes I felt empty and nothing. Knowing myself I had self-pity I cannot get over the past. Even think I am useless.
To some they think I am strong and brilliant because I have the capacity to convey others to change. I am there to cherish, uphold, uplift and awaken their wounded heart. But the fact I am so weak there is a tendency to feel insecure. I often asked why me? Then my mom would tell, it is one way wherein I can combat my negative vibes. It can help strengthen my soul.
Due to my health deficiency many worries could come into my mind. Afraid of what life can have. I tend to ran away. Hiding from from anybody.
When I was in my teenage years I had a classmate. Like me had self-pity. She would always said she was ugly, short and dim. Some of my classmates would bullied her. Of course I must rescue her. Luckily they would listen to me.
I don't know what is really in me? Why some would say I am blessed? Why those classmates of mine listened? When compared to them I am nothing. They have the brain but why they depend when we have some assignments and projects?
Up to now there is still someone would hearken. One time he said he don't want to lose me because I am the one could strengthen. I even come in conclusion to stop because I am only pretending. I have also many weaknesses. I have slow temper that could yelled and mocked people who disputed me.
It's so challenging seeing yourself weak and there you are doing your tasks. It's difficult the fact now a days many would take for granted of your endeavor. Yea I know I need to be strong to pursue my mission. I need to stretch my patience to reach out.
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