Faith, courage and endurance are essential to gain success. These were lacking in my life. I guess the reason why I am still unemployed. If only I have the guts to achieve and forget the past. In fact I kept on asking maybe I was born unlucky.
Reminiscing my childhood days again I've been an honor student when I was in kindergarten. Blessed with talents and active in both secular and spiritual aspects. Even received awards and praises. Now change..... It came to a point I told myself this is my fate.
Yeah I know in everything there is purpose. Only God's know what will be. I knew I am wrong. I tend to neglect my responsible and became stubborn. Even a self-centered being. Always comparing others capability. My utmost dream is to have a stable job, support my mother's needs and the promises I made. If these will happen my life is already complete.
Insecurity and immaturity adds on. Every time I have plans these will come. Lessons to learn that I must move on.
I want to be independent and be a career woman. To have a permanent job to be proud off. To break the prediction of my aunt. Those words can still be remember, "I can't find a job because I am weak." I want to break the record.
Yesterday I tried once more but still failed. I told myself it's not for me again.......Well maybe if I had that job there's a possibility no longer magnify my responsibilities in the church. It's a risk in my health... Left my mother behind...Life goes on I know there's still chances as long I am alive. There are things intended for me all must do is wait and have faith not fate in God.
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